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Tonight, though a little uncommon but not entirely unusual, I spent my evening online listening to music and doing whatever my short attention span could focus on. I would sometimes tear my eyes from the screen and look up at the stars, letting my thoughts run wild after having been reeled in for the majority of the day. As usual, I stumbled across negativity, but unlike most days I closed my tab and basked in my surprisingly good mood. Why shouldn’t I? After all, it’s a rare event.

It’s so much easier to take shit when you’re not already feeling like shit.

Today was a good day, not perfect but pretty damn awesome to my standards.

I probably won’t ever tell you, but I love you. Not romantically, not platonically, it’s something calm and beautiful instead, different entirely from anything I’ve felt before. You gave me something I didn’t know I needed, something that drowned out my inner loneliness and shed a light on what I’m worth.

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Wow okay

So this thing still exists… I should probably delete it haha. So much shit has gone down and still is. Too lazy to write it all down. Besides it’s been almost 2 years since I’ve posted something. I’m surprised people still visit this, as long as it’s no one I know then it’s fine lmao. If you’re still interested in what’s going on in my life you should probably head to my Tumblr.

My blog

Followers can’t always tell what a blog is about by just reading one post. That’s why I’m telling you what it’s about.

I find my subjects in my daily live, I don’t just tell what I do because that would be boring. I put in some facts, some science, arguments and statements, personal experiences and my opinion.

It’s easy? You have to know a lot, have  a strong opinion, be creative and find the time to type it out. I have school, my growing youtube channel and a social life (yes I do!) I also keep my social media up to date and need to sleep and eat.

If my life is so busy why did I start this? Because my mind has to be constantly challenged, I get bored at school because we do only one thing at a time and that’s why all my notes are surrounded by drawings, to keep my mind occupied. I do listen to what the teachers say don’t worry, but I also do stuff that interests me.

I am also an example of life gets better, I know my story isn’t the most shocking but it did have an impact on my life and personality. If I would  have grown up as the only child my parents had I might have never been depressed, but I don’t know what would have happened if. If is something we shouldn’t bother thinking about, it corrupts your view of things and makes it harder to accept the truth. When thinking about possibilities that could happen in the future you might want to look at the ifs but if its about what could have happened just don’t worry.

I try to post twice a week, coming back on the original subject, but I can’t always make it. Until my next post, stay post, stay positive and think twice before acting! x Anouk